A common trait in people with high anxiety and stress levels (+AuDHD) is the need to be creative and do creative activities, and I've found myself to be one of those people. I particularly like the act of doing something to keep myself engaged and focused rather than spiralling into a pit of despair. Recently - more like for the past few years - I've found that I really am not creative. I don't create. And it really annoys me genuinely, because I definitely used to be!
I do craft like crochet, cross stitch, colouring, and I made and designed this website, the content, and quite a lot of the graphics on it too. Although I realised that most of these things are just copying, either off a pattern or an idea which someone else had, and that made me think about how much do I really create? My lack of drawing ability is the main factor I think, I can't create traditional artworks, make an OC, etc. (I definitely think I could get better at drawing if I stuck at it for a long time) But my question is, what even is creativity and how do I do it when I can't do the traditional things?
I just can't really even unlock any sort of creative potential at the moment, probably related to the exhaustion of keeping up with life and the way that society is structured. I may post some updates about things that I create if I'm willing to share them.
Things are not good at the moment. I have a deadly cough (not actually deadly, i'm just exaggerating) and then there is also the fact that most days its between 40-50 degrees celcius.
I hate Australian summer so much
I've been watching so much TV, like the Aus Open and also Heated Rivalry (I finished HR in less than 2 days...). And i'm actually reading books now which is really funny because I never do that.
I also have been redesigning my website SO MANY TIMESSSS - I don't particularly ever like my website. I feel like the first theme of it when i started out was really eclectic and not accessible in the slightest, and now I'm changing the way my site looks nearly every day.
If you are reading this, I would love it if you could pop some feedback about the appearance of my site in my neocities comments? (thx!).
Yesterday I bought some more concert tickets! I'm really grateful and i'm looking forward to it so much. Lorde is coming to my city in less than a month and she's one of my favourite artists. I knew that she was coming to my city a few months ago when she announced her Ultrasound tour, but for some reason I didn't try my luck for tickets. It was a miracle that my brain just remembered yesterday that I could see her live, and then I quickly snagged some resale tickets! It's actually going to be my first EVER concert, and I feel so lucky that Lorde gets to be the first artist I see live. I am anxious about it like most new things, because I don't know what the crowds are going to be like, and i'm worried that there will be an issue with my tickets or bag regulations etc. My bank account is crying lol but its worth it.
If you've seen my concerts page then you'll know that on my Concert Bucket List, i've got Lorde at the very top of the list. And just a week ago I wouldn't have known that I would be able to fulfull that dream this year!
Also!! Harry Styles announced his 4th studio album today!!! I'm so excited because I haven't ever experienced a Harry Styles album rollout before.